I haven't been able to blog for a while, and I have been missing it. There has been a lot going on and I guess I wanted to sum up what has been transpiring with me over these past few weeks.
I just celebrated my 25th birthday, and in my eyes I had just figured it to be another birthday. On top of that I am starting a new Master's program, and trying to make strides to further myself in the workplace. I'm not sure if everyone else went through this once they turned 25, but I woke up a few days ago and I felt very different on the inside. The way I saw things, the way I felt about people, it all began to change. For lack of a better gay illustration, I felt like a caterpillar that was going through metamorphosis and now I have finally become a butterfly. I'm exciting and nervous at the same time because I don't know what any of this means. I have completely reconstructed my life, and I don't know what to be prepared for. I have been greatly enjoying the experiences that I've endured since my 25th birthday, and I am interested for whats in store.
Unfortunately, with this change means that I had to let go of certain things. Some of these things have been a part of my life for a good while, and even though these things were precious, I needed to make some decisions in order to fully embrace this change.
This is what I wanted to address with this particular blog, embracing the unknown. Sometimes in life there are opportunities that present themselves. They might not always be as obvious as we would like them to be, but they are there nonetheless. Sometimes these opportunities lead us to something better, sometimes just to something different, but isn't life about growing and changing and experiencing new things? Isn't life about finding what it is that is best for you and about finding what makes you happy? The hard thing to do is to embrace opportunities when we have been comfortable in a certain position for so long. We've worked at a job for 5 years and it's ok, but we're too afraid to find something else because it MIGHT not be better. Sometimes it's worth the risk. As individuals we need to rise to the challenges of life, not back away from them because it may hurt.
When I turned 25 and I started feeling like I did, yes it would have been easier to ignore what was going on inside me and stick to the regularly scheduled program, but what I could have given up would have killed me later on in life.
Sometimes the best thing when you feel like you've done all that you can do is START OVER, and that is what I have decided to do.
There is certainly nothing wrong with starting over. When I turned 25, and actually ever year around my birthday, I evaluate the year and look at what worked and didn't work. I do this as a way to ensure that I don't make similar mistakes in the future and so that I always Keep Moving Forward. Best of luck with everything!!
ReplyDeleteThank you Eric I appreciate it
DeleteStarting over but in what capacity? Do you have a whole new set of friends? New job? New pass times? Or is it only certain things you have changed. To label your starting over is vary general. But you don't have to turn your world upside down just for the sake of embracing new things. That is the wonderful thing about life is that you can mode it and alter it to how you like it. To start over is a lot more then disassociating yourself from one or two people.
ReplyDeleteIt isn't so much a disassociation from one or two people. It's about exploring possibilities that Ive been afraid to embrace. Starting over for me is finding out what these feelings mean, where will they take, and why are they here now. All my changes are internal and that's where most major changes start. I have been lead to new friends, and past times and I'm unsure what else will change but I'm ready for it. I'm prepared for what this next leg has in store and it is all unfamiliar to me, that to me is what starting over means
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